am back!!!!!!

Hay!!!
me back!! back after more than four years!!! :-) one of my friends suggested that i should start writing again. so here i am. how long will i continue or whether i'll continue here or not am not sure. still its a nice feeling to be back in known territories.

Lot has happenned over these last four years. I have changed so much. and to be honest---- me not very happy with it. lost a relationship and a friend in turn........... one of the reasons why am here, need to fill the void that he has left behind. it hurts like hell!!! but can't do anything about it. relationship and all to chalta rehta hai but when you lose a freind of more than twenty years in the process than thats the sadest and hardest part to deal with.
You can not leave him and you can not be with him. you are concerned but then you can not show it. i thought i'll be able to move on and i have but its only limited to the working days. weekend comes and along come the memories, then i run here and there trying to push them away. problem is jaati hi nai yaar!! no matter what i do there is a thought at the back of the mind, oh!! my best friend is not there with me anymore!!
The person in whom i confided the most, who used to be the first one to come to my mind when i had anything worth sharing.

So i dedicate this post to My Dearest Freind. Miss you dear!! :-)

Good Night!!!